And the beat goes .....

Why is it so hard to organize thoughts? Its like you tied to an elastic band to yourself, wrapped it around a pole and tried to grab something beyond your reach that the elastic will let you stretch to sometimes but for the most part just slams you back into the pole. Everyones key to their kingdom is their worst enemy. All I can ask for is a chance at creating honest art that reflects me and can impact others whether it be for good or worse. Just cut the elastic band they say; well no sorry theres no scissors around, your stuck with the conscience. Thats why when you accomplish something you feel so good. Not because you spend all this time creating it, but the fact that youve defeated yourself and theres proof of it. As long as its proof you can live with deep down. Thats what fine works of art are. It's the artist walking around saying "I beat the shit out of myself" and as proof the wounds are in the window or on a track or in a book.